i'll be honest i have been dreading this day our pen names haven't only given us an identity, but a reason to stay and it's hard because 1 sided dimples can't cover everything  only red cheeks and bad humor i hope i've been worth your time and i hope i've made you feel a hundred things at once because that's how i've been...

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I remember when times were simpler. When the hardest part of the day was tying your shoes.  I remember making bread for the first time in kindergarten and it tasting so good I remember you and your contagious laugh  and how we thought riding in the wagon down our street was a good idea.  You couldn't steer so we tried leaning,  but we...

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I woke up this morning missing you. because I can't forget  the way your eyes crinkle  on the sides when you smile. and in first grade I told myself that I would marry a man with those eyes. those kinds people are special to me. maybe that's why its hard. because you finally gave me the time of day after weeks of absent...

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Update: it hit me. Hard.  I found out just how real the tear stained faces are.  And how mascara doesn't care if anyone can see you or not.  It still stains my always red cheeks.  I found out that numb only lasts for 8 days. I found out that another weekend third wheeling sends me home quicker than my curfew does.   I...

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It's early November and I can't feel my hands, my toes, my face,  or my heart. and to be honest, I don't really think it's hit me that you're gone. the drives, the almost handshakes, and the eye contact from opposite sides of the commons. it's gone but I can't feel it. I can't feel it. I almost wish the emotions would come...

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"You said don’t lie so I made the truth" I made pancakes today. "Seemed like a lie to even you" *I tried to make pancakes today. but if I'm being completely honest, they weren't very good. I feel so high maintenance because I had my mom make them. I'm mostly worried for college because I don't even like Ramen Noodles. and you can...

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I have it. you have it. picasso even had it.  so that makes me feel a little better. I'm a stress case and sometimes I worry it will take over my life. it hovers and comes crashing down when I least expect it. damaging the pretty blue eyes and the delicate curls. the nails you paid too much for and the worrisome mothers that only want...

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"When the parents hate it, the kids love it" HOW TO STAY YOUNG: 1. 2.   3.  4.   5.  6. 7.  8.  sorry the wrinkles are inevitable no matter how much money you spend because carrie underwood and jennifer aniston told you to and we're all just kids who grew up too fast.  ...

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"we are wild, we are like young volcanoes"-Fall out Boy Sadie's was gr8 don't get me wrong  but you are impossible to read. and I can read everyone. bella and edward lol K but I refuse to be the lifeless, emotionless girl who doesn't get it. and you're not a cold hearted person. I don't know whether or not to text you like you told...

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"If you're going to be two-faced, at least make one of them pretty." -Marilyn Monroe no offense but I'm a little scared of people like you and what you're capable of.  I let you in on a little secret  not thinking much of it but that was the problem. trust is a funny thing because its lost much quicker than it's gained. it's...

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Because maybe you're the sunshine at midnight  when the stars are too weary to be noticed and hunny I'd take you over the stars any day.  ...

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I hate you Wow sorry that was rude I dislike you. How's that? people can do a 180 in such a short amount of time "you are the sum of the 5 people you give the most time to." -zoelaz Boy can I vauge for that.  I've seen you go through hell and back and you still refuse to acknowledge who you've become. ...

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you scare me  my heart can't handle your dimples and how you throw your head back when you laugh I'm more nervous to talk to you than to take the ACT or apply to college. Scratch that. Nothing's scarier than applying to college. but you come pretty dang close. I seriously get anxiety and probably more than is healthy as if any anxiety at...

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The faces you see everyday. Gone The grumpy cops, the nasty smelling football hallway, and most of all the knight.  Also gone. You're "one year older and wiser too" but it's not nearly as exciting as when you were in primary. I don't want to grow up just yet. In fact I dread growing up.  I'm terrified actually. I'm terrified of leaving everyone I've...

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