Update: it hit me. Hard.  I found out just how real the tear stained faces are.  And how mascara doesn't care if anyone can see you or not.  It still stains my always red cheeks.  I found out that numb only lasts for 8 days. I found out that another weekend third wheeling sends me home quicker than my curfew does.   I...

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It's early November and I can't feel my hands, my toes, my face,  or my heart. and to be honest, I don't really think it's hit me that you're gone. the drives, the almost handshakes, and the eye contact from opposite sides of the commons. it's gone but I can't feel it. I can't feel it. I almost wish the emotions would come...

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"You said don’t lie so I made the truth" I made pancakes today. "Seemed like a lie to even you" *I tried to make pancakes today. but if I'm being completely honest, they weren't very good. I feel so high maintenance because I had my mom make them. I'm mostly worried for college because I don't even like Ramen Noodles. and you can...

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