I have the kind of headache that makes your teeth clench and your eyes water. and I get a bloody nose every other day. the doctor said that vaseline has all the answers it can't be that easy. Can it? Tell me I'm not a hypochondriac when my dad randomly decides to have our whole family checked for diabetes. Maybe it was my...

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don't worry about that paper don't worry about that assignment about that midterm and that midterm and that midterm because grades shouldn't define me but somehow they still do My A's are fading fast and all I can think of are the days when this was easier. easier to write easier to sleep and much much easier to talk to him. I almost talked...

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you say you have an old soul and mine's growing weary waiting for you. this week has been everything we hoped for plus two  and if we close our eyes then maybe,  just maybe, nothing will change  at least for now. i'm a bit of a hopeless case.                               ...

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i'll be honest i have been dreading this day our pen names haven't only given us an identity, but a reason to stay and it's hard because 1 sided dimples can't cover everything  only red cheeks and bad humor i hope i've been worth your time and i hope i've made you feel a hundred things at once because that's how i've been...

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I remember when times were simpler. When the hardest part of the day was tying your shoes.  I remember making bread for the first time in kindergarten and it tasting so good I remember you and your contagious laugh  and how we thought riding in the wagon down our street was a good idea.  You couldn't steer so we tried leaning,  but we...

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I woke up this morning missing you. because I can't forget  the way your eyes crinkle  on the sides when you smile. and in first grade I told myself that I would marry a man with those eyes. those kinds people are special to me. maybe that's why its hard. because you finally gave me the time of day after weeks of absent...

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Update: it hit me. Hard.  I found out just how real the tear stained faces are.  And how mascara doesn't care if anyone can see you or not.  It still stains my always red cheeks.  I found out that numb only lasts for 8 days. I found out that another weekend third wheeling sends me home quicker than my curfew does.   I...

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